From childhood until university, I used to think that the best way to win and maintain friendships was to let the other person have their own way all the time. I mean, that’s what everyone says about friends; it’s important to put the other person first. As a teenager – with Asperger’s, at that – I was never good at interpreting social rules. Though really, how far wrong can you go with this one?
It started harmlessly enough. If other children had forgotten/broken a pencil, they soon knew they could ask me for one. If we were queuing for anything exciting, I would willingly let anyone who asked go in front of me. And if I had any particularly special treats in my lunch…well, you get the idea.
I think my parents realised there was a problem when I began losing some of my stationery to people who needed it more. But who was I to complain? I was trying to be a good friend. I didn’t always like it, but I wanted to make people happy, and thanks to autism, that was the only way I knew how. My first rule of thumb was to put other people first; my second, to avoid offending anyone. And saying “no” to a reasonable request was, in my mind, the epitome of offence. Especially when people took offence if I so much as thought about it. A problem which I could never get to go away.
It wasn’t until I started trying to apply boundaries that I learned that not having them makes it harder to recognise and respect other people’s boundaries. At first glance this makes no sense – the reason many people struggle to set them is because they desperately want to please. I’ve had to learn to not be either offended or overcome with guilt when people disagree with me, or criticise me, and instead, simply work out how to change for the better. This doesn’t mean blindly deferring to the other person; sometimes it takes a bit of objective analysis of a situation to see what you could do differently.
Unfortunately, it’s impossible to go through life without offending anyone. Until I left uni, I used to think it was as simple as either keeping the peace at all costs, or showing no respect for other people’s feelings whatsoever, but it’s not that black and white. I couldn’t let go of the mindset that being a good friend meant keeping the peace at all costs, until I realised that setting boundaries isn’t unreasonable. For me, it means:
- Not being afraid to politely but firmly let someone know if you don’t like the way they treat you
- Being consistent in the standards you set for how you treat other people and expect to be treated
- Being able to disagree with someone, while still showing them respect
- Reminding the other person that their way of seeing things isn’t the only way – while remembering this principle yourself
So, to end on a saying I heard at church once, if you never say no, what is your yes worth?